school lessons you should have learnt properly!

when i was in school, we had questions like distinguish between in exams. when the you are writing the byhearted points you suddenly at a point realise that the heading you've given is different and the points below are different. like you've given the heading of A and writing the points of B. and in the B column you're writing points of A.

so at that age, you think you've screwed up majorly and have no way out. there's not much time to rectify it completely coz if you do it, you'll miss another questons and you cant afford that in race of marks and ranks. so, you try to rectify the points by cancelling some words and writing above them. it all looks so messy.... teacher wont probably (surely) give you marks for that messy answer. and you think you're sinking more into the mess... and you've lost out on time too...

then someone brighter teaches you that you should have just cancelled the headings and rectified them. it would have saved time and the clutter too. this simple life saving solution comes to you later. and you feel if just you had used your brains at the right time rather than panicking.....

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things you learnt when you were a kid, no matter how small or insignificant, teach a great lesson in life. in the above seemingly unimportant tale, lies a lesson of life. that again you learn later on, when time has passed by and you feel if just you had used your brains at the right time rather than panicking.....

THINGS I WANT TO HAPPEN OR DO IN MY ENTIRE LIFE.....

1- space travel.

2- be able to play some sport nicely and accurately.

3- have my poems published and appreciated.

4- recieve a big boque of flowers from amey.

5- have an amazing figure like heidi klum or deepika padukone.

6- direct or script write a film.

7- be tall enough.

8- make it big in journalism.

9- be of some help to poor and suffering people and kids in asia, africa, afghanistan.

10- publish a book or novel of my own.

11- have a big big collection of books.

12- recieve a surprise birthday party from friends.

13- be a photographer's muse.

14- be close friends with a guitarist, rocker.

15- do an amazing waltz with amey.

16- have a big, well furnished dream house, completely conceptualized by me.

17- have a bigger, aqua bathroom.

18- have lots of girlfriends and lots of fun night outs.

19- always have a reason to smile and be happy about.

20- do something for environment or wild life.

21- do something constructive for my nation.

22- sip coffee on a rainy day sitting next to amey.

23- wake up next to amey.

24- kill, better still, castrate some rapist.

25- hit or abuse some road side idiot.

26- have a past life therapy and know what and who i was.

27- be underwater to see marine life.

28- play with dolphins.

29- be a mermaid or a princess.

30- be someone very famous or of a very high standing.

31- have pet dogs, cats, rabbits, birds, turtles, fish in my house.

32- do some real good feature stories.

33- have a beautiful, lovely, charming little girl.

34- bungee jump.

35- sky dive.

36- river raft.

37- chopper ride or baloon ride.

38- do all possible things with amey. be it adventure or soul finding.

39- get married in christian ceremony, out on a lovely beach.

40- have a big, enviuos walk-in wardrobe.

41- have an incredibly silly poem written for my by amey.

42- have a metaculosly planned gift from amey.

43- be able to love him every day.

44- do a film role, a challenging one.

45- do mad things in my life.

this is not it..... there's more to come. wait for it....

a new start!

so, i guess hi!

i dont know how other way to make a new start. i started a blog enamoradodevida a year or two back. i kept up with it and again lost touch. it was supposed to be my blog, it was supposed to be me, myself. but i guess in the rut, i lost touch with my own self too. the blog's name meant in love with life in spanish. did i lose touch with life too? did i just let something slip from my hands, while i was worrying about things. things that mattered, didnt matter, who knows if ever mattered? well, the truth is i did worry about things, lots of things. and i still do. the only difference is now i know as you grow up, the worries in life grow up too.
there is the difference, i've kind of grown up. back then, i was 16-17. a teen. now the teen is fading away. i.m entering 'ty's' now. twen'ty', thir'ty', for'ty' and so on..... its a new world, full of worries and questions. and they're not basic, trivial questions. they're big and important. its not about the color of the lipgloss or wat clothes do i wear or wat my boyfriend did......... its now about where's your life heading, where's your career heading, where you are sailing and where you are anchoring your ship. its complex and now i know it. its not a teen adventure now...... its more of challenge ahead. and the pressures are high..... to face it, to fight it, to make a mark, and still be standing.
so lets make a new start and lets see where it goes. lets trust the wave of the ocean, no matter how big and scray the sea seems. at the end, its bound to take you to your destiny.

p.s. i'm still a talkative idiot..... just a little more wasted. :-)