Monday, September 22, 2008

His hello was the end of her endings,
Her laugh was their first step down the aisle.
His hand would be hers to hold forever,
His forever was as simple as her smile.

An ocean couldn’t prevent it.
A New York minute wouldn’t let it pass.
Does the universe decide for us,
Which love will fade and which will last.

He said she was what was missing.
She said she instantly new.
She was a question to be answered.
And his answer was “I do.”


this was the poem recited by carrie bradshaw in an episode on sex and the city. and so i love it....

Monday, August 25, 2008

love needs help

when being in love is not enough,

when going gets really tough,

when you feel scared now and then,

and when days dont seem to end,

love needs help.

i know that feeling perfectly well,

when you feel all alone,

when you dont feel cared,

when you need a little reassurance,

and you're out in the cold,

love needs help.

those times of day i know by heart,

when you need someone by side,

but the one's far apart,

it's those times that are dark,

when in your eyes there's no spark,

when you smile a lonely smile,

love needs help.

Friday, August 22, 2008

fridays!

fridays!! i so await for fridays... even if it means get up real early in the morning and do practically everything in the house and take a hurrid bath and rush to catch a train... (the train is not so irritating so much for its real empty and the weather outside is cool and windy. and the train runs faster too somehow in the morning so its the anticipation that runs in me too)
and then reach college and wait dreamy eyed for a man to come and talk about.... ummm.. nothing else but... why parvez musharraf resigned and what impact will it have on india? ---- blabber about rajdeep sardesai---- how our home ministry is hopless? --- how rajdeep sardesai plays cricket and has many years of humble experience.--- how basically our entire nation is corrupt. --- how rajdeep sardesai should be THE PM and rule the country.---
so all he talks of is jornalism, reporting, rajdeep sardesai, politics, circket, more of rajdeep sardesai, cybercrime, his fearless reporting, cnn ran by RAJDEEP SARDESAI! but i really dont mind... coz that man is great and he's cute! and more importantly i'm in love with him!
yes... thats it! he's so adorable but he still has so much of knowledge. and such crazy stories he's done. god, if only i could be with him all the time to see how he works and come sout with brilliant stories. now thats why my fridays are special. its his lecture that day. i dont mind when he comes late... thats every lecture... coz he gives us so much (filter rajdeep sardesai ofcourse)
yeyeyeyeiiiii... i want a mentor like him... young, responsible, cute, adorable but still sensible and gutsy. wanting t give more, himself wanting more, full of passion, youthful not restless.... ambitious and aiming for stars.. dreamy but achiever...... i want to work under him.... god, heveans!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

BREAKING NEWS : A NEW VIRAL FEVER EPIDEMIC IN THE CITY

22 june, 2007
mumbai
according to the reoprts of the indian medical association a new viral fever has attacked the city. the lethal virus, Suffocative Brains Immune System, more commonly known as SBI, is spreading throughout the city. the new report on the virus say that it may have already attcked nationwide makeing this vioral fever epidemic a national emmergency situation.
the first signs of th virus were found when the news spread that state bank of india (SBI) is recruiting thousands of young candidates through a nationwide entrance exam. the position offered was of branch clerk along with other benefits as PA, TA, Mediclaim and PF securing the young candidates future.
the virus reportedly centers its attack on the brain of the victim. it destroys the grey cells taking away the rational thinking capacity of the victim. the fever also takes away the capability of man to think differntly and dream. if the fever persists, it leads to the terrible condition of a very narrow mind and inability to foresee. strangely enough, the virus does not affect possesser of the virus as though physical death does not occur, it may lead to suffocation
the virus is lethal and attacks people beyond the age group of 45 years. parents with young teenagers especially in media or other such creative fields are most common victims of this fever. strangely enough, the virus does not affect possesser of the virus as it does to the young teenage offspring of the posseesor. most horrific results are seen when both the parents are the carriers of the deadly virus SBI. the teenager goes through a series of violent ouburts or depression. though physical death does not occur, the fever results in suffocation of the soul and dreams and destruction of trust towards parents. the fever may also result in high frustration levels and lead to situations like leaving the house or suicide for the teenagers.

untrotten

Dont be scared
lost you make your way...
you do find a path
in the untrotten
yes, the blowing wind is new and cold
shaken... nothing to hold on
hang on... your dreams are not lost
you're not alone
you can make it
just keep going
leave behind a trail
of success and failure
of tears and joy
of defeat and win
leave behind a mark
of learning and faltering
letting go and not clutching
look back and smile
its the time to move on...
to another undiscovered world
to learn an invent there
dont be scared
lost, you make your way
you do build a castle
in the unknown

Friday, March 14, 2008

A year later the sun smiled and now I’m finally on track he thought. He smiled as he looked at her. All he wanted was to be lost in her eyes, those dark shimmering eyes and be lost forever. There was no hurt now, just a simple smile in those eyes. Oh, how much of hurt he had caused her. Just the thought of how he had betrayed her love made him nauseatically sorry. Pardon me for my sins, lord’ he prayed silently wondering if god would be listening to these prayers, ‘for the pain that I’ve caused to my beloved. My foolishness had these beautiful eyes vanish under the clouds of pain for long. Forgive my sins my lord. Forgive.’
He looked back again her, facing her beautiful naïve face. There she was, after all the pain he had caused her , still standing infront of him. ‘How much love is there for me in that heart? That it’s still ready to accept this man who betrayed the very love we shared.’ He thought feeling a sense of love and respect for her that he’d never felt. “I am sorry” he finally said. She muttered an almost silent reply, “lets go home” a tear drop appeared from the corner of her eye. He held her close in the chilling winter as they walked. He felt her warmth and said ‘god, I’m really heading home’
As he opened the door of their home, where once again they were going to lay the foundation of a trusting marriage, he kissed her. He felt those tender lips and kissed them like he was asking for forgiveness. He could together feel The remorse of leaving her and relief of her having forgiven him. A warmth was settling in him, freeing him of guilt. It was an explosion of happiness he could feel inside him.
Agape of the explosion he opened his eyes. There she was, after all the pain he had caused her, still standing infront of him with a gun in her hand. A stream of warm blood trickled from his forehead. As she muttered an almost silent prayer, ‘forgive me lord for my sin, for I could not forgive him…’
The man said, “I am not romantic and I cant express my love for you” and she smiled and said, “yes, its true. When you hug me, when you kiss me, when you feel so relieved and calm to finally hold me near, when you just want to listen to my voice, when you want to sit infront of me when I’m visiting the bathroom sick 10 times a day, when you tickle me, when you stop if it hurts, when you keep the call if my dad comes, when you crib about my cellphone, when you tell me I’ll stand next to you throughout, when you leave me to explore out alone, when ou make crazy plans to see me, when you see me from the auto while going, when you tell me to come down from my house at 12 in the night, when you really stand below my balcony at 12 in the night, when you come in shorts to eat an icecream, when oyu eat mcalu tikki with me, when while eating you criticize it, when you call me a brhamin, even more so when you ask the same Brahmin to marry you, when you call me short, when you call me a cat, when you make weird noises, when I understand the language behind these noises, when you try to dance just because I want to dance, when you want to save yourself till marriage, when you want to get married now, when you want to spend the night with me, when you leave a note saying ‘see you later sleeping beauty’ next to my coushion, when after that night watching me sleep becomes your favorite pastime, when you listen to all my problems, when you agree to see a crap movie with me, when later you laugh about it, when you leave your dinner and come to pick me up, when you light 19 candles for me, when you wear formals for me, when you make that face when you get late, when you let me take your picture, when you fantasise with me about our marriage plans, when you suddenely shout ‘what a cute girlfriend I have’ on the phone, when you say I cant express my love for you…. My darling, unknowingly, every minute you do….

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

distant friend

i think i'm losing out on u friend!

but i dont know how to help it

it seems like now u dont really listen to me

the smile looks fake

the eyes which once showed an emotion

are dry and neutral now

the silence is not golden

but rather an imaptient question

how long does this have to go on?

why such coldness?

why the feeling of being matter of fact?

i tried, i tried very hard to come back

but somehow its just impossible

u seem to have made up ur mind

happy with the new ones that u have

maybe i'm the old past

i'm not even trying now though it hurts

its ur decision, u've taken it

let the silence remain...

untill it hurts u...

master of the game

how do people achieve it? one day before the exam buy or rent the books, glance thorugh it and walk towards the exam hall.... and then chill.. with friends and ur girlfriend... one month later come to know that u've topped the subject...
next exam create a world record... dont even see the book's face... and enter the exam hall.. see the paper, write every single question with a smirk on ur face.. exit in one hour... call ur girlfriend and fix a meeting with her... chill with friends
(one month later the news comes... 30 in the paper u worte without ever looking at the book for once!)

Thursday, February 28, 2008

pointless

losing has always been my fear and I think it always will be. U know me in and out, so u know I’m truly like a child. Insecure and scared. Innocent and dreamy. Mad and hopeful. Whoever I love the most, I’m scared of losing them. Cause that would take away a piece of my heart and the meaning of me. I will lose my strength too with him. And the thing or rather the problem is I love u like mad. I’m hopelessly in love with u. and I cant help it. I couldn’t help it from the very beginning. And now…… I’m so interwined with u that…. That I cant even find words now. I just know that there’s nothing without u.
u know me, death was always a obstacle to me. I would imagine my mom’s death and thought of ways to fight it. Coz I knew my life would be of no meaning then. Child as I was, young and stupid, I thought I would make a mummy of her. Bless me I think now that I could atleast fight it. Child as I am now, I imagine ur death. And be sursprised, my mind goes blank. It is a different thing for me, quite astonishing, coz me the thinker can surely cook up something. But no, no image comes infront, no thought, just a blank pause and from nowhere a tear rolles down. A warm tear….but the drop doesn’t soothe the already aching heart.
As silly as I sound, I know u think I’m mad. And u have every reason to think like that. I know I am mad. But madeness is the last thing u think about when u r deep down drowned in love. U just stay there… feeling it… it fills ur heart and then it fills u out…
I really do love u a lot. I dont know what words to stick here to express that. But u add meaing to my life rather u r my life. Cliché… cliché… cliché.. I know….
But tell me way to express it na… how do I express it when I lose a heartbeat when I see u… how do I express wat I feel when u hold me close…. How do I express the peace spreading in me when I look at u…how do I express the look on my face when I see a ring put on my ring finger… how do I express my mind so occupied with u… how do I express when I don’t take a virar train coz u told me… how do I express my long lost gaze when I’m thinking about u… how how how???? I am exploding with feeling right now…. And I cant find a single word to express them. All this is not a lie. I really am feeling too many feelings. U need to know how much I love u but I don’t know how. Can u feel it? Do u know already?
I know I’m not at all talking sense. Nothing of it makes sense. I know I’m not going to lose u and u already know how precious u r to me. Yes u know how much I love u cause u love me much more than that. But its just a prayer. And I don’t know why I’m praying like this and telling u all that. But I think I’m including u in my prayer. I’m praying not to let u go away. Stupidly, innocently. I’m praying that u always stay with me. And I should stay with u. I’m praying we should be together. I’m praying nothing should break us apart. U’re the most precious thing I’ve got. I need to cherish and love my vampire. And I need u. to comfort me, and just sit next to me. I have no more demands, hug me and just keep me there. Ur baby safely locked away. Its warm and cozy there and I feel like a cacoon. Nothing can touch me and nothing can ever possibly harm me there. And I like it there, I don’t ever want to get out from there.

That’s it, that’s the point of all this… don’t let me out of ur hug….

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

for the creep i love

i know now who you are
i know now why you are
in my life
in my herat
you are a soul born
apart but still
a part
to teach me the meaing
to soothe my wound paining
you are a drug lethal
addictive sweet poison
you run in my bood
making my body numb
you reach my heart
a bloody mess you are

i know now who you are
i know now why you are
in my life
in my heart
fighting and loving
you'll always be there
you'll never be apart
loving me, cherishing me
the very next moment
harming me, hurting me
in anger and in love
in frustration and in numb
in despair and in calm
you'll need to look at my eyes
the window to your soul
you'll need to hold my hand
to make you complete

the journey is written
we are to be together
we will teach
we will learn
we will live
the song of our fate unsung...

have you ever...?

have you ever been lost
to just find yourself?
have you ever stopped midway
to know you can go ahead?
have you ever breathed hard
to check if you're still alive?
have you ever smiled
to see if it still hurts?
have you ever loved enough
to give yourself away?
have you ever cared
to say a final goodbye?
have you ever made a promise
knowing you'll break away?
and then have you justified
saying it had to happen?
have you ever felt guilty
of the chance you gave away?
have you ever wished a moment back
knowing its lost forever?
have you ever lived your life
thinking it is just today...?

this is the most romantic poem i've ever written!

the darkness fell in silenece

and somewhere

two hearts lit in extacy

her dark tresses fell on his chest

a silky youch of conspiracy

a warm embrace of the bodies

brought the two souls together

now they lay in tranquility

holding one another

listening to their heartbeats echoing

a rythm to which

dancing was their flame of love

a gentle caress of his hand

on her shivering body

spoke the words unspoken

lucky that she thought she was

loved truly by a man

made a reaffirming nod in his arms

her lips smiled

to the memory of their kiss

sighing to how she had become

a slave to her own heart...

Thursday, February 7, 2008

i dont know what's happening to me. my heart is crying one moment, the other it is all happy. its is silent one moment, the other its asking me many questions. i am restless and suddenly a calm spreads over me. i am gaining i am losing. i am winning and i'm falling.
a weird silence has taken me over. something is changing in me... i just have to await now...