a new start!

so, i guess hi!

i dont know how other way to make a new start. i started a blog enamoradodevida a year or two back. i kept up with it and again lost touch. it was supposed to be my blog, it was supposed to be me, myself. but i guess in the rut, i lost touch with my own self too. the blog's name meant in love with life in spanish. did i lose touch with life too? did i just let something slip from my hands, while i was worrying about things. things that mattered, didnt matter, who knows if ever mattered? well, the truth is i did worry about things, lots of things. and i still do. the only difference is now i know as you grow up, the worries in life grow up too.
there is the difference, i've kind of grown up. back then, i was 16-17. a teen. now the teen is fading away. i.m entering 'ty's' now. twen'ty', thir'ty', for'ty' and so on..... its a new world, full of worries and questions. and they're not basic, trivial questions. they're big and important. its not about the color of the lipgloss or wat clothes do i wear or wat my boyfriend did......... its now about where's your life heading, where's your career heading, where you are sailing and where you are anchoring your ship. its complex and now i know it. its not a teen adventure now...... its more of challenge ahead. and the pressures are high..... to face it, to fight it, to make a mark, and still be standing.
so lets make a new start and lets see where it goes. lets trust the wave of the ocean, no matter how big and scray the sea seems. at the end, its bound to take you to your destiny.

p.s. i'm still a talkative idiot..... just a little more wasted. :-)